Teary Eyed
by Jordan King Natchez
(Mississippi, U.S.A)
The distance between life and death
Is one single breath
Gone but not forgotten
But how...when the doctor gave u a clean bill of health?
Its not the thought of you passing
That leaves the biggest sting
Its the subjects you left unfinished
The changes the years bring
I shouldn't be here
Things shouldn't be this way
An aunt
Two nephews
One i havent met til this day
I should have taken initiative
Thats what my inner spirit shouts
But I cant love for two people
Or is that jus a cover up for my doubts?
Did u ever really care?
That im here and you're there?
Then again its not your fault
This entire setup is unfair
I wanted so much for us
And it jus didnt happen
...tears drop down
But dont u dare hand me a napkin
You should have handed me a card
Handed me a call
Handed me ur elbow when I had that brutal fall
Handed me a text message- more than once or twice a year
So now dont u dare try to wipe the shame u see reflected in my tear
You will see me suffer
Because u didnt see me rejoice
You will hear the sorrow thick, heavy in my voice
You must know that I am here
That I am alive
That I carried this emotion
That throughout the grit and grim I have survived
I have even thrived
Dont you dare reach out your hand to wipe the tear drops from my eyes
My testimony speaks
No in reality it leaks
You will see me for exactly who I am
Or maybe who I have become to be
Because this is part of closure
And you're the part I have set free..
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